At Hope4Cancer, our goal is to help every individual make the treatment choice that’s right for them. Recently, we sat down to interview H4C patient, Erin Jessica Hall, about what it takes to survive and thrive through the non-toxic journey. From discussing emotional challenges to sharing realistic experience and advice, Erin reveals all the ups and downs that come with choosing a non-toxic healing path.
Hi, Erin! Thank you so much for speaking with us today. As someone who has been through the non-toxic journey, can you tell us what choosing this path means to you?
Choosing a non-toxic journey for cancer healing means choosing the least amount of suffering possible. Healing the immune system instead of injuring it; using treatments that don’t damage vital organs or cause secondary cancers. It also means choosing to be different. Not everyone understands this path — part of this journey is letting go of those relationships that are too focused on fear and instead embracing support.
That is a very good point, embracing support. What kind of support do you think one needs to have on this journey?
First and foremost, you’ll need spiritual support — healing from cancer requires a lot of soul work! Jesus is my personal favorite; whenever I am crying about suffering, I know Jesus is also crying right next to me. Suffering was never a part of the original design. It also helps to have regular counseling… we can’t heal alone. However, that being said, you will often need to be your own support. At times, you’ll have to be your own best friend and your own cheerleader. Some peoples’ “support” comes with strings attached and will only cause you further damage. You’ll have to learn to listen to your own inner voice and not let what others think dictate your choices. The only opinions to consider are those of the few trusted souls in your safe circle. Overall, it’s a balancing act of learning how to receive help, while being careful who you let help you. Only let those in who have earned it by showing up, and stop waiting around for the critics to change their minds.
What drew you to this path versus a more “conventional” approach?
I had a very traumatic experience with conventional care when my older, disabled sister had a brain cancer recurrence from being over-radiated as a child. Chemotherapy, radiation, and surgery were not even close to a cure. They caused more pain and suffering, and in the end I watched her die. When I was diagnosed, alternative care was never even mentioned as an option. I saw three different oncologists, and received a different opinion each time. But each one lacked compassion, using fear and intimidation to force me into treatments. I was outrightly discouraged from researching. Nobody was interested in emotional healing or connection. No one mentioned quality of life or secondary cancers, or offered informed consent. There was no emphasis on healthy eating. In fact, free donuts, soda, and candy were offered specifically to cancer patients! This was especially disturbing to me, knowing that cancer feeds off sugar. What I love about the non-toxic path is that it’s full-body healing. Eating well and thinking well are just as important as getting those IVs in. Plus, the compassion and the hope of alternative doctors is so refreshing. I love that I’m treated as a human and not a statistic.
Have any setbacks made you question your decision? How have you overcome them?
I had a lot of assumptions about alternative healing. I thought it would be easier, faster, and that more family would be on board. Even though alternative care is less toxic, it can still make you feel sick. When my tumor grew two different times, coupled with the lack of support from some of my loved ones, I admit that I did question this journey. My parents have already lost two children, and without any grief support they distanced themselves over the fear of losing me. It was extremely painful. I felt abandoned, unloved, and my own fear kept me from being vulnerable or allowing other help in. I didn’t realize how isolating choosing this path would sometimes feel. Most family members still don’t talk to me about cancer healing. They don’t come over to check on us. It’s uncomfortable to be vulnerable so most just stay away. It’s rare to find people who are comfortable being around all the messiness of healing.
I think part of overcoming these setbacks is having realistic expectations for healing. I have to remind myself that cancer builds immunity to therapies and it’s crucial to change up the program. I’ve also done a lot of healing around others’ reactions to my path or lack thereof. Weekly counseling sessions have helped me process the intense emotions around facing mortality, and after about a year of therapy, I realize that the critics aren’t against me — they’re just scared to lose me, and for whatever reason they are incapable of just saying that. I remind myself not to take it personally, that they’re doing the best they can with the coping tools they have, and generally try to stay away from people who are too filled with fear to be able to help. Learning to let go is a lot of grieving, but the tears have helped wash my own fear away.
While we’re on the topic of overcoming setbacks, what struggles do you think someone making the choice to heal alternatively should be prepared for?
Honestly, be prepared for the biggest spiritual battle of your life. It’s scary to take the first leap of faith, but you have to decide to trust Jesus over anyone else’s opinion. Find a therapist with similar beliefs as soon as possible, and learn to forgive. When your diagnosis is first announced, support will flood your door, but it will soon dwindle. People will return to their normal lives, and you can’t heal alone. You also have to be ready and willing to change everything about your lifestyle that caused cancer in the first place. Diet change is hard, but it’s not a punishment. Eating healthy is an act of self-love.
You’ve mentioned self-love a lot. Can you elaborate on why you feel that’s such a crucial ingredient for healing?
Most people don’t understand how frustrating healing can be. I feel exhausted; I get annoyed at how messy the house gets; I can’t accomplish as many tasks as I used to with the day being more treatment-focused; I forget to take my vitamins or some other treatment when there’s a lot going on. But healing isn’t about cramming in as many therapies as possible and then freaking out when you miss a coffee enema. Healing is hard, messy, time-consuming work, and you have to commit to that work every day. You have to learn how to see yourself as Jesus does. Celebrate every victory, no matter how small! Find joy in the journey, and enjoy the life you are so desperately trying to save.
Where do you personally turn for answers when you’re faced with more of the frustrations that healing entails?
Jesus has been my main resource simply because He is the real healer. I also follow people who have healed from cancer alternatively on social media, and I’m part of various online support groups. I love the endless sea of alternative treatments, but it’s hard to know what to choose sometimes. It’s important to be able to ask questions and receive support. Books have also been a good resource, especially when I was first diagnosed. Two good ones are: Radical Remissions and Metabolic Approach to Cancer.
Finally, what words of encouragement would you offer anyone considering a non-toxic path?
The first thing I would say to anyone diagnosed or going through life’s hard challenges is: I’m so sorry for your pain. It’s important to validate the unfairness of it all. Too often, people tell cancer patients that we’re brave, strong warriors. This leaves no room for our actual feelings — we want to be heard and seen as more than just a sick person. I also want every reader to know that cancer is not a death sentence, and I am proof of just that.
Erin Jessica Hall is now cancer-free after three years of her non-toxic cancer journey. She continues to advocate and encourage others who are seeking information and looking for better options. She also is living her life to the fullest, continuing preventative solutions and thanking Jesus every day for her healing.
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